Spiritual overload

I reached a spiritual saturation point today. That happens to me periodically. I open my mind, I expose myself to learning, I listen to new viewpoints. And I'm proud of that, especially because I would not have been open even five years ago.

The thing that's tricky is that I try to not only hear the new information but process it and embody it. But what happens when I open the channels, too much comes in and I feel like I've hit overload? I can tell you. Everything starts to sound like la-la-la-la-la-la-la.

After going to my usual Sunday service this morning, I went with friends to hear a renowned spiritual teacher and author this evening. I realized after just a few minutes there was a disconnect. The best way I can describe it is she and I are not on the same wavelength. She doesn't speak to me. I had to keep bringing myself back to stay in the moment.

What's tough about this for me is it seemed everyone around me in this sizable auditorium was captivated and engaged. It made me keep wondering what I was missing. Sometimes I think I need to be more accepting of myself and not question what boils down to personal taste.

Meanwhile, earlier today I ran across a quote I like from Jerry Spence: I would rather have a mind opened by wonder than one closed by belief.

Amen.